A recording of the sermon preached at First Unitarian Church of the River in Memphis, TN on Sunday morning, October 19, 2014. An observance of Children's Sabbath. Hear a recording of Rev. Elaine Blanchard telling the story: "Luba, the Angel of Bergen Belsen" as told to Michelle McCann by Luba herself. A true story for people who are not afraid to consider truth.
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Tuesday, October 21, 2014
Sunday, June 29, 2014
Welcome Outside the Walls
Psalm 13
Matthew 10:40-42
Preached for Holy Trinity Community Church
June 29, 2014
Jesus is talking to his specially selected disciples in this
short Gospel text from Matthew. The
entire tenth chapter records a speech Jesus gave to the gathered disciples. He
gave them authority to cast out unclean spirits and the power to cure every
disease. He sent his selected disciples out as sheep in the midst of wolves.
Jesus refers to them as prophets, righteous ones and little ones. Those who
welcome them, giving even a cup of cold water, will not lose their reward.
Although the disciples were given authority over unclean
spirits and the power to cure any disease it is interesting to note that they
were apparently not given the capacity to over-ride any lack of hospitality on
the part of other people. The disciples would have to lean on the hope that
somebody, anybody, whenever and wherever they carried the good news, would open
their hearts and their homes to receive them graciously. And, as you can well
imagine, some did and some did not receive those disciples graciously.
What is it about us as human creatures? What slams the door
and closes us off from truly encountering one another?
We read the 13th Psalm and it is clear that fear and dread
of our enemies is not a new thing. “How long, O Lord, shall my enemy be exalted
over me?” I wouldn’t want to dismiss or minimize the reality that we live among
people who are not worthy of our trust. There are good reasons for locking our
doors and using good judgment about who we allow in the house.
Anna and I were in Washington DC this past week and we
visited the Holocaust Museum. Cruelty is real and terrible. The level of
cruelty inflicted on others at the hands of the Nazi regime was awful, painful
and infuriating. Six million people died. It’s the agony they endured before
their death and the terror that the survivors and the liberators witnessed…that
leaves us wondering: What happens to us as human creatures? What slams the door
and closes us off from truly encountering one another?
Rush Dozier, Jr. has written a book, Why We Hate, and he
makes it clear that hate is born from fear and it is irrational when humans
hate each other. The fear comes from a feeling that survival is threatened in
some way. To combat irrational fear of the other person, Dozier suggests
programs that mix people of diverse backgrounds in a positive setting where
unique individual qualities can be seen and shared. I would suggest that
storytelling circles are a very helpful tool for breaking down the fear that generates
hate and dangerous prejudice.
In his book Dozier reminds us of the terrible dragging death
of James Byrd in Jasper, Texas. The shocked citizens of that small Texas town,
a population of only eight thousand, tried to follow some of Dozier’s strategies
for righting what had obviously gone terribly wrong. Black and white people got
together and went through an intense period of community soul-searching. While
some worked on reconciliation, the Ku Klux Klan and the Black Panthers were
also meeting in the town, calling for new members and more divisive action.
Those groups were largely ignored. A series of vigils were held in memory of
James Byrd. Crowds came to the lawn of the courthouse and people began to look
at each other. They started listening to each other. They made it their
business to know each other as neighbors and friends.
In January 18, 1999, the mayor of Jasper and a large
committed crowd gathered in the city cemetery. They watched as workers tore
down a long, rusty iron fence. For seventy-five years that fence had separated
the graves of black people from the graves of white people. A barrier came down
and people resolved to work on their relationships, their faith in one another
and their trust that human life is valuable and dignified by the love of God
within us. We are no longer a threat to each other when we realize how much
each one of us has to offer the other. That kind of realization takes time,
effort and the courage to change.
Jesus sent his disciples out to share what they had been
given: the good news that God is love and all human life is dignified by the
love of God within us. Jesus urged his disciples to go where people live, learn
to know them where they met them and to be sure that, when they were welcomed,
to realize this as a generous extension of God’s love and welcome, a gift, a
joy, something worthy of reward.
What are we afraid of losing if we actually welcome the
stranger in? Sitting here in this warm and welcoming church building among
friends it is easy for us to imagine that we are the good guys, the ones who
would open the door widely to learn something new. We would allow for a new
relationship to be born. Because in this place and in this hour of worship we
are feeling welcomed ourselves, grateful for a place to belong, a place where
we are known and valued. Here we feel safe.
Anna, and I enjoy watching real estate programs on
television. It’s good TV while we eat dinner. House Hunters are led from place
to place by real estate agents. We watch couples search for a home that meets
their list of requirements. Until I started watching all these HGTV shows I was
unaware that double sinks in the master bathroom are a must-have. I have discovered the concept of the
“man-cave” by watching HGTV. And I am constantly amazed at all the
twenty-somethings who get their first job, get married and seriously expect to
move into a 5 bedroom home with an open floor plan, a three car garage and an
outdoor kitchen for entertaining. All of these homes have guest rooms, fully
furnished and nicely appointed. And even so—with all this space, all this focus
on entertaining and a room that is designated for guests –we have become, as a
society, more and more closed off to the other. It’s interesting. And it’s a
hard pattern to shake and shift toward greater hospitality.
The church has not been helpful in breaking down the walls.
As an institution, the church has done its share of contributing to the shut
down and shut out of the other. Certainly from that day in the year 1517, when
Martin Luther nailed his 95 these on the front door of the parish church in
Wittenberg, there has been a clear divide: them and us. They wait to be told by
the priest what the Bible says and what it means. But we read the Bible for ourselves and
interpret it for ourselves. And so on and so on the divisions go. We construct
reason after reason to build these walls of separation. And that’s the way we
do church behind our walls of brick and mortar. We feel safe with our little
family inside here.
Let's be clear...Jesus sent his disciples out to meet people, to spread good news. He didn't say, "Go forth and build brick buildings. Invest all your money in heating and cooling huge structures. Plan on spending large portions of your budget on upkeep."
Let's be clear...Jesus sent his disciples out to meet people, to spread good news. He didn't say, "Go forth and build brick buildings. Invest all your money in heating and cooling huge structures. Plan on spending large portions of your budget on upkeep."
I think it’s time for us to shake things up and shift our
way of being together toward a more generous welcome, a ready hospitality. I
think it’s time for the church to act less afraid of difference, change and the
challenges of being human together under the roof of God’s love.
David Waters wrote an interesting column for yesterday’s
Commercial Appeal. He informed us that Islam is now the second-largest religion
in all the southern states except for South Carolina. Waters says, “What an
astounding and outstanding development in Southern hospitality, although not
everyone is feeling particularly hospitable about it.” Christians in Middle
Tennessee had to be reminded by the U.S. Supreme Court to read the first
amendment when Muslim neighbors started building a mosque in Murfreesboro.
Memphis has a friendlier story in terms of its hospitality.
The seventh house of prayer here in Memphis has opened its doors at the corner
of Bill Morris Parkway and Hacks Cross. Dr. Mohammed Assaf, a member of the
Islamic Association of Greater Memphis, says, “We are blessed to have good
neighbors. The interfaith community here is very strong. We know each other,
like each other and trust each other.”
Part of that trust comes as a result of the Annual Ramadan
Dinner hosted by the Islamic Association. People from all over town, all races
from all walks of life and from all faiths sit down together and eat. I think
there were 800 people at the feast last year. We share a table experience. We
talk to each other, ask questions and learn about one another. On July 13th we will gather again. For the
eighth year, we will be welcomed to a feast provided by the Islamic
Association.
Lately I have realized that one way we could chip away at
racism’s fear and hate would be to rebel against the pattern of inviting only
people of our own race over to dinner. Eating together breaks down barriers and
shines light on the love that lives within us all. Racism remains a strong wall
that divides us only as long as we do not eat together, for as long as we do
not share our homes with each other and do not come to know the life stories of
the other. Effective anti-racism efforts involve the intimacy of our own homes
and our own tables. Public encounters are not nearly as effective as private
encounters.
The real work of the church has left the building. We can
claim to be a welcoming church but how welcoming is it when we insist that the
other has to find us, get transportation and arrive at our door and walk inside
the walls that we have constructed and claimed? We can stand at the doors of
this worship space and smile as brightly as possible. We can shake hands and
hug every person who comes to the door. We can give away excellent coffee and
donuts on Sunday morning. But as long as it is just us coming in the door we
are not growing…not personally and not in our faith. Until we leave the building we are
stagnating, withering and dying. I am looking forward to the day when the walls
of the church, with all of its barriers, come tumbling down.
If that sounds disastrous to you then I might remind you how we all come together in times of disaster. Differences disappear and we work side by side as one family when we experience disaster.
If that sounds disastrous to you then I might remind you how we all come together in times of disaster. Differences disappear and we work side by side as one family when we experience disaster.
Outside the walls we stand--vulnerable and filled only with the promise
and power of God’s love within us— we can meet the other face to face and share
the good news that all of us are vulnerable and all of us need each other to
become fully human. When barriers come down people can resolve to work on their
relationships, their faith in one another and their trust that human life is
valuable and dignified by the love of God within us.
Amen
Sunday, June 8, 2014
Ring the Bells
Preached
at Neshoba Unitarian Church
Cordova, TN
June 8,
2014
“Ring
the bells that still can ring
Forget
your perfect offering
There
is a crack, a crack in everything
That’s
how the light gets in.”
From
“Anthem” by Leonard Cohen
I’ve said it so many times and I feel the need to say it
again: It is challenging and often very difficult to be a human being. I look at my cat, Alex, lying in a circle of
sunlight on the floor and I know he isn’t concerned with climate change,
violence against women and the problem of racism in our justice and corrections
systems. Alex never worries about getting the oil changed in the car and he is
totally unconcerned about his security when it comes to retirement. But we, as
human beings, have all of these concerns on our minds and we tend to feel overwhelmed
or indifferent. The flood of information is so much that we drown in it sometimes,
even those of us with the highest educations and the best intentions.
That’s why I keep telling stories. Because in the moments
when I am telling a story, I am not struggling. I am not worried. I am not
confused or frustrated. I am simply being myself and “ringing the bell that
still can ring.” It may not be perfect. My stories are certainly not powerful
enough to put an end to violence against women but the stories are the bell
that I ring and it keeps me centered, motivated and hopeful.
In the five years that have gone by since I was the
Religious Educator here at Neshoba Unitarian Church, I have spent much of my
time in jail. I went to Shelby County’s jail for women to tell stories and to listen
to the stories of women who are serving time there. I went to listen to them
because I wanted to find a hungry place,
a place where people thirst for a chance to be noticed, heard and valued.
I
have been disrespected and dismissed in my life. I know that kind of pain and I
went to the jail to listen to stories because I have learned how much healing
happens when people listen to my stories. There is freedom in the experience of
face to face respectful storytelling. Freedom. Even in jail, human beings can be
liberated to be the best human being they can possibly be—when light comes in
through the cracks.
Each one of us has the power to liberate and to be liberated—to
the extent that we do what we can with what we’ve been given to make the world a
better place.
In 1961, Clarence Gideon, a poor man in Florida, petitioned
the United States Supreme Court. Gideon was in jail in Raiford, Florida and
serving time for breaking into a pool hall. He was poor and poorly educated, a drifter
with a criminal record. He couldn’t afford an attorney. Clarence Gideon thought that was unfair and he
claimed it was unconstitutional for a man to be denied legal counsel because of
his inability to pay.
Until recently I would have guessed that the law in the
United States of America has always provided legal counsel to the poor. But
(to put it into context) I was nine years old at the time Gideon wrote his
letter. It is very recent in our nation’s
history that legal counsel has been guaranteed to the poor among us.
The letter was written with a pencil and in big block
letters. It was processed and given the respect it deserved. But Gideon was not
the first person to claim the right to counsel regardless of inability to pay. Twenty
years earlier (1942) in Betts vs Brady
the Supreme Court had ruled that the constitution did not guarantee counsel in
state criminal cases.
“But the Supreme Court never speaks with absolute finality
when it interprets the constitution. From time to time the high court overrules
its own decisions. Clarence Gideon, from his jail cell in Florida, was asking
the Supreme Court to change its mind.”
Anthony
Lewis/ Gideon’s Trumpet
And they did. We now have public defenders, attorneys who
focus on cases where indigent citizens are in need of counsel. The Shelby
County Public Defenders are bright, dedicated, and good humored. They are
overloaded with cases; and determined to do the best they can for every one of
them.
Because Clarence Gideon rang his bell—doggedly determined to
be noticed and heard—our public defenders are out there ringing their bells and
letting light shine into so many otherwise dark places. The needs are enormous and
the problems are complicated.
According to a recent feature story on CNN, there are about
as many people behind bars in this nation as there are people in the city of
Chicago. One in every 108 citizens is locked up and living under supervision.
According to the NAACP, one in three black males born in the United States
today is likely to spend time in prison at some point in his life. That’s
compared with one in six Hispanic males or one in twenty-five white males. More than two million of our neighbors are locked up right now in some prison cell and-- because we
do very little to encourage and educate them while they are incarcerated-- far
too many of them will return to jail within a few years after their release.
This kind of information is discouraging. It’s the kind of
information that can leave us feeling overwhelmed and helpless. I want to point
out that feeling overwhelmed and helpless is as much a trap, a prison cell, as
any iron bars can be. To throw up our hands in despair is to trap ourselves,
silence the bells and turn out the lights.
It costs on average $47,000 a year to keep an inmate in
jail. But what would it cost us to help somebody in jail? What would we have to
give up in order to liberate one human life? And what would we gain if we set
ourselves free from the belief that there’s
nothing I can do about the crisis of mass incarceration?
Michelle Alexander’s book, The New Jim Crow, is an
excellent read and an eye-opener. In her last chapter she says, “It is this
failure to care, really care across color lines that lies at the core of this
system of control and at the core of every racial caste system that has existed
in the United States or anywhere else in the world.”
I know you care. I know this congregation well enough to
know that I am preaching to the choir here. It is my hope that my words today
might inspire one or some of you to go to jail and ring the bells that still
can ring. Contact the volunteer coordinator and volunteer to be a literacy
tutor. Help somebody earn their GED. Start a book group. Teach a craft or an art. Set up a series of
lectures in which eight of you talk to the inmates about your own careers and
how you got where you are, what matters to you in life. Give someone a chance
to play a keyboard, to sing a song, to write a poem. Call the office of the
Shelby County Public Defenders and ask one of them to give you a name for one
of their clients, somebody who needs a friend, somebody who currently has
nobody coming to jail on visiting day. It’s
not what you do that matters so much. It’s doing something that will make a
difference.
Clarence Gideon was a poor man, poorly educated and
incarcerated. He wrote a letter with a pencil and he mailed that simple
communication to Washington DC. And because he did something—we now have public
defenders for all of us in this country.
I met Carolyn while she was serving time in our county jail.
A short and round African American woman. Thirty-seven years old when I met
her. Carolyn has spent most of her life around North Memphis. Sometimes she
lived with her mother in an apartment or in the home of a friend or relative.
Sometimes she lived on her own on the streets. She started prostituting at the
age of thirteen. Dropped out of school. Fell in love with crack cocaine. No one
urged her to stick with her formal education. She learned how to survive by the
strength of her own body and spirit.
She chose to join us in Prison Stories class. For four
months she sat in the circle with me and eleven other women in the jail.
Carolyn told stories about her life. Some of them were so funny we slapped our
knees and laughed til we cried. Some of her stories were frightening, so
frightening it made me see the world through different eyes when I left the
jail and headed for home. Her stories opened windows on worlds I had never
seen, places and people not far from my home but previously invisible to me.
At the close of our time together and at the performance of
the class stories, I called Carolyn up to the front and gave her the
certificate of completion she had earned.
She turned to the gathered audience of incarcerated women, family
members, jail staff and community guests. She held that certificate up high
over her head and she announced, “I took this class because I wanted to tell my
story to somebody. And somebody listened. Ms Elaine and my sisters listened to
what I been through and I saw the truth. I used to think I was a bad girl, a
fast girl. I used to think weren’t no hope for somebody like me. But now I told
my story and I can see… I ain’t no bad girl. I ain’t no fast girl. I am a girl
what had bad things done to me and I can get over that. I can be free.”
And so can we all. So can we all.
“There
is a crack, a crack in everything
That’s
how the light gets in.”
Amen
Thursday, May 1, 2014
Memphis' Commercial Appeal Article (Sunday, April 27)
Storytelling and art combine to help students communicate
creatively
By Michael Lollar
April 27, 2014
It is Elaine Blanchard’s second semester as an adjunct
professor at Memphis College of Art. Blanchard is a storyteller and a woman
that one art student is convinced “could get along with a brick wall.”
Blanchard is best known as a woman who goes beyond some of
the biggest walls in the city along with the razor wire atop them to reach out
to women in prison, helping to “set them free” by getting them to tell their
stories.
She also is a teacher who has taught special education and
gifted students at Snowden Elementary School. And she is an ordained minister
who teaches classes called “The Preacher As Storyteller” at Memphis Theological
Seminary to help future ministers relate to their audiences.
Blanchard’s roles as educator and mentor came together at
Memphis College of Art last semester when her optional class drew students for
the current semester by word-of-mouth. “It’s one of those classes that’s now in
high demand,” says Maria Bibbs, the Memphis College of Art teacher who
recommended hiring Blanchard as part of a liberal arts curriculum tailored to
artists.
"She’s electrifying. I love to hear her voice and just to
see her coming. She’s such a warm and engaging person,” says Bibbs, who learned
of Blanchard through her volunteer project, “Prison Stories,” which has turned
Blanchard, 62, into one of the most recognized women in Memphis. It earned her
a Jefferson Award, an award from The Commercial Appeal as one of the Twelve Who
Made a Difference and a winner of the vision award this year from Women of
Achievement.
It will also turn Blanchard into a TV personality next month
when WKNO-TV airs a 30-minute documentary about her by Craig Leake, a nine-time
Emmy winner who followed and filmed Blanchard’s seventh installment of “Prison
Stories” for 15 weeks. The documentary will air five times beginning at 9 p.m.
Thursday, May 15. In it, Blanchard enlists women to tell their stories, then
writes and produces a play based on their hard-luck lives and the misdeeds that
landed them in prison.
“Miss Elaine makes you feel like someone ... She gives you
hope,” says one inmate in Leake’s documentary.
When he learned that Blanchard joined the faculty at the
College of Art, Leake, who teaches in the department of communication at the
University of Memphis, said that whoever hired Blanchard is “very wise. Anytime
you see her in a crowd you know people flock to her because they want to talk
to her. She’s one of those people who makes you feel somehow important. What
you say she really wants to hear. That puts her in an ideal position to
influence students.
“A student would never feel that, ‘Oh, here she comes with
her old yellowed notes.’ She’s got to be a breath of fresh air. If she is
encouraging artists to tell their own stories and the stories of their own
artwork, wow, you couldn’t find anyone better to do that,” says Leake.
And that is exactly what the College of Art had in mind,
says Bibbs.
Art students may be great artists, but they are not always
the most communicative people when it comes to telling the story of their art
or learning to play a role in the marketing of art.
Memphis College of Art is focusing on an innovative
curriculum that tries to prepare artists for the real world, says Bibbs. It may
be one of the few schools, possibly the only one, to employ a storyteller to
further that goal.
The class with 16 students this semester is called,
appropriately, “The Art of Storytelling,” and it helps students learn to build
a narrative using elements of theater, writing and performance art that come
into play in Blanchard’s “Prison Stories.” Bibbs had been exposed to a related
idea while in graduate school at the University of Wisconsin, she says. It was
a volunteer project that involved students to help teach African-American
studies and creative writing to African-American inmates.
Blanchard’s class is not a volunteer project, but it exposes
students to the real world through field trips each semester. With Blanchard
they visited with homeless people, incarcerated women, adults with
developmental disabilities, nursing home residents and men in transitional
counseling after long periods of imprisonment. Students talked to members of
each group and chose one person to focus on as their individual class project,
creating artwork inspired by that person.
Robby McElhaney, 22, an illustration major of Franklin,
Tenn., said he chose a developmentally disabled man as his project because of
the man’s ability to constantly find joy in a life that, on the surface, has
little to offer. As part of the preparation, he said the class learned from
Blanchard to listen. “I think we (the students) would all agree it’s had an
impact on us.” One of Blanchard’s major influences, he said, “is just learning
to pay attention and to pay attention to details instead of waiting for your
turn to speak.”
It is one of the reasons why he says Blanchard’s class has
become one of his favorites and that she “could get along with a brick wall.”
Classmate Crystal Foss, 22, a photography major of Seattle,
planned to focus on a female inmate and said that one of Blanchard’s best
lessons was to emphasize “vulnerability. We sat around the classroom for the
first five weeks and talked to each other. It gave you a way to be vulnerable.
It’s like bringing everyone together. It’s important to share that
vulnerability. It’s so easy to censor yourself. Then, it (art) is not really
true anymore.”
Blanchard often shares part of her own past and how her
misogynist father focused on his sons, treating her as an afterthought of
little value. She said such painful memories come out in what she calls
conversation” instead of storytelling. “Just look at me. Talk to me about your
life. That’s how I help people get in touch with their vulnerability and
authenticity.
“I’ve learned that the things in my past that hurt are what
led me to be who I am now and to enjoy being who I am now. I am almost as
grateful for the hurts in my past as for the wonderful and nice things that
have happened. I wouldn’t enjoy my life so much if it wasn’t for all that I’ve
gone through. The gratitude has pushed my resentment out.”
Blanchard says it is a joy to work with art students because
they “really get it. I don’t have to teach them that creativity is important.
They already know that. And I don’t have to teach them that human beings can
create something new. They’ve already got that. The thing about the College of
Art is that the students come, and we all appreciate that we’re creating
something new. It’s for the sake of creating, not that we think we’re going to
get rich or famous. It’s just that we’re creating.”
The projects were set to be unveiled Saturday at
TheatreSouth, beneath the sanctuary at First Congregational Church at 1000 S.
Cooper, with students presenting their art and telling about it.
Blanchard is exploring whether the artwork can be publicly
displayed later, either at the college or in a nearby gallery.
“It’s so different than any other academic class we’ve
taken,” says Foss. “I don’t know whether to be nervous or excited.”
That angst is part of the course, says Blanchard. “We become
artists shaped by the pain of our lives.”
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Sunday, April 27, 2014
Fear and Freedom
I Peter
1:3-9, John 20:19-31
Preached at Shady
Grove Presbyterian Church
April
27, 2014
We are born with two instinctual fears: fear of falling and
fear of loud noises. We learn to be afraid of other things. We learn to trust
the same as we learn to fear. Life is all about learning.
In my lifetime I have learned to fear rejection and
abandonment. We all have our biggest
fears and those have been mine. Many trained therapists through the years have
listened to me talking about how those fears have gripped me and tossed me
about. So you’ll understand when I tell
you I was sick with fear, shocked
into a near panic in December of 2008, when I received a letter from a United
Church of Christ conference minister telling me that I had officially lost my
standing as a minister in that denomination. Rejected and abandoned.
A confusing and frustrating three-year process had led to
that letter and the termination of my ministry with that particular
denomination. “Somebody from a previous congregation has written a letter of
complaint,” I was told from the beginning of the process. I was never told who
wrote the letter nor was I told what the complaint was. I knew I had never
stolen anything from a church member. There was no abuse of my authority
involving sexual misconduct. There was no drunken behavior that might have
shocked or embarrassed anyone. Repeatedly I met with a conference committee on
ministry in an effort to mend what was broken. My local pastor, Cheryl Cornish,
went with me to several of those meetings as an advocate. Friends wrote letters of support.
But the dye was cast. Every time I asked, “What are the charges against me?” I
got the same response from the conference minister, “You know the answer to
that.”
When the letter of termination arrived in the mail it read: “She acts
confused about things she knows and she seems angry with this committee.” I
was.
Losing my standing as a minister in the United Church of
Christ felt like the worst thing that had ever happened to me. It left me
feeling a little crazy…what had happened? It made no sense and that cloud of
uncertainty would not lie down and settle. There was no one smart enough to
explain it to me. There was no one powerful enough to fix things. I lost confidence
in the church and its systems. I lost confidence in myself. I lost my career,
my income, my pension and my health insurance. I felt like my life had ended. Hiding
felt like the best response.
t would be years before I learned that that confusing
process and the loss of my ministerial standing with the UCC was a gift to my
faith, a light pointing the way to deeper faith.
Because now my ministerial standing is with the Progressive
Christian Alliance, a group of professional clergy who engage in ministry
outside the walls of church buildings, who believe that good news is most
effectively offered and received out in the streets and in the places where
people actually live. I have discovered places where my light can shine and
make a difference. I am now involved in work and ministry that fits me like a glove.
I am guessing that many of you have had similar challenges
in life. Loss of a career, the death of a dream, injustice, sickness, betrayal,
divorce, tragedy that turned the lights out and left you in a dark place—afraid
of falling, afraid of loud noises, afraid of what else might come along and
knock the foundation out from under your life.
Of course we resist, for as long as possible, the very idea
that we could ever fall or fail. None of us graduate from college and make
failure part of our career plan. I think
I’ll become a professional failure in 2008. No. But Richard Rohr, in his book, Falling
Upward, tells us that falling and failure are important for all of us if we
are ever to wake up and realize the value of our faith. In fact, falling and
failure are the keys that open the door to let light into our darkness.
Rohr points out that we all seek security. As we get
educated and move along in our careers, we plan on moving toward home, a safe
place, a place to belong. But Rohr says we’re inviting fear into our lives if
our largest hope is security and a place to stay put. For the spiritually awake
and alive, home is a place from which we move out and away- following the one
with the nail scarred hands and feet.
This is what I have learned… the fear I felt as a result of
that rejection and abandonment left me nowhere to go but to ask for God’s help.
I had to learn to trust love. It wasn't helpful to trust smart people. Nothing was resolved or aided by trusting powerful
people. There was really no point in trusting my own rule-keeping and ethical behavior. I was forced to move more deeply into my own spiritual resources where I
found Jesus meeting me right where my needs were, showing me his own wounds and
reminding me that he knows all too well what it feels like to be treated
unfairly, to be rejected and abandoned. Prayer, good friends, creative projects and therapy have
reassured me that the God who created me will never reject or abandon me. I
have no need to fear.
Following the crucifixion, the disciples were afraid and hiding
in the dark behind locked doors. Confusion was huge in the mix of their fear.
What could possibly have gone wrong? They had been with the Messiah, the one
sent from God, the beloved. And if he could be arrested, convicted, executed …
gone… what else might happen in this terrible world?
Jesus walked right through the locked doors and right into
the room where the disciples were. He met them where their fears were - not
with judgment or any kind of shaming. He showed all of them his hands, his feet
and his side, pierced and wounded, so they could see and believe, learn to
trust something more.
Love cannot be executed. Love is never gone. We can let
go of our fears and learn to trust love. And when we do, we will experience
true freedom, moving out and following love wherever it takes us.
Amen
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